craziness

i haven't been writing for a while, huh... well, sadly, my mental life is a shambles! i'm waiting to hear back from the interviews i've done in boston, which is making me terribly irritable. sorry all, i'm kind of superstitious about interviews and job karma and all that. and i feel like already too many people know about what i'm going through with these 2 interviews, and that's why i'm not hearing anything back from anyone. when i get anything--even a rejection--i'll talk about them...

also, i'm having a hard time dealing with our family problems. lee's mother is sick and i'm not there and i don't know yet when i'm going to be there and i feel like i'm really far away and there's too much going on but i can't do anything about it.

and finally, there's my new boss at work. she's nice, and that's about as far as i can go. she does have an art background, but she's never used it and it doesn't apply to anything taught at scad. i feel like if she never sinks, she'll never swim. she relies on me for way too much stuff--but she's my boss! but i feel like her boss. she's also never managed anything or anyone before, so i also feel like the boss there. i may not have library management experience, but i have 3 years of other management experience. this woman runs almost everything by me, or just plain doesn't know what she's doing or what's going on. she's also a drama queen and a terrible chatty patty who won't shut up! i feel like i can't get anything done in my office. this job has truly driven me to drink. it's a good thing that i don't buy alcohol for just myself at home...